In a little over two months from now I will be leaving the Africa Mercy and traveling home to Georgia to start over. I have no attachments to anywhere in particular and looking forward to a brand new adventure. Because of this I thought I should maybe pray about the future, quite unexpectedly the first words out of my mouth ... "Lord ... Whatever." Whoa! Wait? What? Whatever!? That's some scary crap right there! Whatever the Lord wants to do with me, that's okay? I had to check myself a little there. Okay, okay I had to check myself a lot. Do you really mean what you say? Because I have a sneaking suspicion it might be a crazy/wild adventure. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry not only because it is totally unknown, but because I know God has a big plan for me. I mean seriously he sent this little country girl all the way to Africa ... Three times!
{Deep breath} Okay, yes, if I want to be a completely abandoned follower of Jesus the answer has to be "Yes " ... whatever/wherever/whenever/whoever. I have absolutely no idea what I am signing up for here, but no one does I guess. Saying yes to Jesus is all or nothing. Completely abandoned to you! You have paved the way. Prepare for lift-off this is going to be a crazy ride! Will this be 100% without confusion, doubts or even possible heartache. No, life never is. Please Lord forgive my misgivings, you know my heart. Where you lead I will follow.
I don't want you to misunderstand this, does it make me an awesome Christian because I'm saying yes to God. Am I looking for applause or praise. No, I'm most definitely not a perfect person or anywhere near it. I'm a terrible sinner who Jesus was gracious enough to die for my sins. You could say yes as well. So I have a one word challenge for your ... Whatever?
Then I heard The Lord asking, "Whom shall I send as a messenger to this people? Who will go for us?" I said, "Here I am. Send me."
- Isaiah 6:8
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