Trusting is uncomfortable

God doesn't call us to be comfortable. He calls us to trust Him so completely that we are afraid to put ourselves in situations where we will be in trouble if He doesn't come through. 

I am currently reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan. I've read it a couple times before but I have been in a different place in my life each time. I just read the quote above this morning and it really resonated with me. That is exactly where I am right now, trusting and waiting for Him to come through. It isn't comfortable! It's quite scary not knowing what not only the future but next month will hold. There are several promises I am trusting God with, one being providing funds for this trip. Without his provision I could not be here. I know some of you think that I am such an amazing woman, living my life devoted to helping others. One of my friends put is best, she said Actually I am a horrible person who is loved and forgiven by an amazing God. I have certainly done things I am not at all proud of, but you know what God loves me just the same. He also loves you.

When you pray, your prayers are heard by the same God who 

answered Moses' prayer for water in the desert, the God who gave Abraham 

and his barren wife a son, and the God who made the slave Joseph 

second in power only to Pharoah.

He wants to give you big things. I just wanted to share my heart and challenge you to trust God for the big things. It's not comfortable but He has always come through. I hope this was as much an encouragement for you as it was for me. 

The right attitude

So here's the dealio ... I've been assigned to work on the General surgery ward. It wasn't my first pick, just being honest. One of my first thoughts involved, hmmmm .... Let's just say ice. Ice packs for male hernia patients. You ship alumni know what I'm talking about. Not my favorite part of general surgery. I miss the little cleft lip babies and the huge transformation that happens when a tumor is removed. I absolutely love seeing someone feel beautiful and accepted for the first time.

I kept sulking and pouting about it but then yesterday I realized something. This whole time I have been thinking about what I get out of it and not how I can serve others. Not very Christ-like huh? Yeah, I felt pretty guilty. One of my friends mentioned that every surgery here is transformational. It's so hard to think about the transformation when you don't see the facial tumors gone or bent legs straightened. It so true though, for those men and young boys the hernias are hindering their day to day lives. Maybe they are unable to work anymore or play football with their friends. It must be hard.

So as I work in the General surgery ward I want to keep a good attitude that I would make my Heavenly Father proud. I will show these patients the love and acceptance they deserve and maybe, just maybe I will have a transformation as well.